“You Lie”
I do lie, I lie quite often to those that I don’t care enough about to fill with facts of my life, instead I create an interesting and mildly amusing theatrical act of my life and my self. To you anonymous I will not lie because I know you well. You’ve watched me my entire life, you probably know me better than I know myself but I do not envy you. I enjoy having you here in my life.

“to suppress what you’re really feeling inside”
you are probably the only one to know what i really feel inside. I’ve always been a shy, quiet, and very hot tempered person and suppression is probably my best talent. I’ve learned that it isn’t always best to do or what you think, especially if it is living life in the moment because often its in that moment where you make mistakes that you end up regretting the most. The things I do say tend to be more of a twist of the reality then a lie, I attempt to marginalize the things that would effect others or myself negatively and instead simply pull forth the string of words that untie the negativity.

“You pretend and hope that everything goes away”
I do, I am a strong believe that time heals everything. I guess this is one of the reasons I crave so much for the immortality of the god. I have never been happy with what I am, I always crave the ability to perform better, to gain more, to achieve at a higher level. I’ve changed many times. If I was to stumble upon someone from my primary school on the busy streets of the CBD 90% of the time they would not recognize me but 90% of the time I’ll recognize them. Time does make things go away, memories and associated feelings that we don’t hold deeply or strongly fade and disappear with time.  

“you falsify to forget”
my understanding of this questions is that I seem to pretend that I’ve forgotten. This is true too. For those that I no longer have any need for or any positive memories of I’ll often ignore and cast away.

“what do you gain”
I gain a second of normality, I gain a hope of being the same, I gain the sensation of feeling like everybody else. I gain what I want and need. I gain freedom from my chains. I gain momentary happiness. I gain sensations of life. I gain myself.

Life is full of regrets. There are so many things I wish I could go back and change. Who you are as as person is how you choose to except these regrets; if you can move on an learn from them, or if you can’t and learn from them.